The Break Up

Dearest readers,
I fell in love when I came home over the summer break from University. I loved everything, I would give anything, and now I find myself giving it away. It was amazing, the feeling you get. There is so much history there, and I cannot bear it. Its like i'm ripping myself a part. I find myself missing what will surely happen in a couple weeks, if not less; The Break Up.
I know its coming, it's just a matter of time. I feel like I'm going through a divorce. The world seems darker, and smaller. Less interesting. This has carried me through university, been my life line when I needed it. It has carried me all through University, and now into Summer. I thought that this summer would be different, not ending in what could only be described as pain. But, its cost me too much, each month I stare in horror at the letters that I receive and see the cost rise... I hold you in my hand and ask "What have I done to deserve this?". Its a gut wrenching descision. I dont know what I should do... So now I ask myself...

Rogers or TELUS... iPhone or Blackberry

F.F

Time of the Month

During this time, I get angry, I don't sleep well, I get major pissy and I go around in a rage. There is little you can do to console me, and I am not in the mood for anything. I pity the fool who tries to make me smile and fails... This my friends, is when I am sent my Cell phone bill. (What else could I possibly be referring to?)
The prices are sky rocketing through the roof. "Hello, Im a student, paying bills that amount to 265 dollars isn't fun for me." Its so disappointing! They should know who I am by now, I've called them every month for the past 4 asking them to double check their counting as they cannot charge me 40 frikking dollars for texting... when I have unlimited texting! Like, who does that? Who do they think they are? A girl that lived in my dorm would agree with me at this point.

I love my cell phone but not that much. I had a nice little chat with a man that I work with for a half hour bitching out phone companies around the city that we live in, and how the prices are simply outrageous.
Anyway, I thought that I'd let you know.

Oh! Do you remember back vaguely when I was planning to read this honking huge list of books over the summer? And I said that I'd keep you all updated? Well, truth be told, I haven't made any progress on it in the past month, but I keep borrowing more from the library. I think I'm waiting for the pile of books to fall over or hit me, or for me to trip over them for me to get jump started back into reading them. I'll find a way somehow.
Does anyone have any suggestions to add to my original booklist? I want them to be amazing books, I read mostly anything; but lets not have crazy long books which could take me the best part of a life time to get through, kay?

I gotta go and do something a little more productive than staring out the window pointlessly for a good hour...

F.F

So... I was bored

Okay, when i'm bored I have this need to try out new things.
I was driving round Westhills yesterday when I thought to myself, why not pop into a store and see what pointless little things I could buy? So, I walked into shoppers drug mart and walked down every isle taking my sweet time to the varying annoyance of other shoppers ripping through the shelves like they were in a marathon, when I came across razor blades and waxing strips...
Skipping over the razor blades (Like, who hasn't used a razor before?) and went straight onto the waxing section. I was bombarded with pretty pink waxing strips, and pots of wax and wax that you could use in varying places on the body, like ones back, neck, ass and face. After looking around I found this...
"NEW! *air pretty glitter hair removal wax strips [ Legs & Body] Quick & Easy sparkling wax strips, with chamomile and cherry fragrance!"
Notice how it says "Quick & Easy"? Notice how there is FALSE ADVERTISING out there in the world? Yeah well; it was the worst false advertising ever. The only true thing about it was what it smelt like, more like, stank like and that it sparkled... and was pink. It was all too much girly shit packaged into a box which promised women, like myself, that it would be "Quick & Easy"... What a FAIL.

I read the instructions, as I have never used wax before, and it told me to rub my hands together to soften the wax. I did exactly that. You peel them apart and you have 2 wax strips that you can use! Oh My Gawd, YAY!
-.-
I peeled them apart and put one of the sparkling pink strips of stinky cherry smelling wax on my legs and pulled.

Fuck did it hurt. Who does this for fun? Who would put themselves through this for kicks? Why would anyone in the right-bloody mind want to put pink sparkling shit that claims to be "Quick & Easy" on themselves to get smooth legs? Not. Me.

It was a burning sensation that I can only assume rivals a yeast infection, on my leg causing me to bite my lower lip that it drew blood. My leg was red for a couple seconds and then it stopped thankfully. I was sitting on my bathroom toilet bouncing up and down cuz it hurt so bloody much. I was questioning myself, a little late, I know, going "Why on earth would I do that?" and then a voice said "Beauty is pain."
Well fuck that! Razors dont hurt. Ima stick with them.

Moral of the story? Dont trust pink shit that claims to be quick and easy and glitters like a Cullen member in the sun.

F.F

Little Disappointed

As I have finished White Oleander I have moved onto a different book. I read about 50 pages and couldn't go on. It was nearly impossible for me to be remotely interested in what was happening, so I decided that I should take a break and get back into it. Even then, it was near impossible, I felt that it was paining me to read the book. I then returned it to the library today and took out two others on my book list; The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake and To Kill a Mockingbird hoping that these two would be a more interesting read than What is Left, The Daughter... hopefully. I'm on to reading My Name is Mary Sutter today praying that it wont be as much a disappointment as What is Left, the Daughter.

F.F

White Oleander

You know that recently, I have decided that I would like to start reading a lot of books over the course of the summer, mainly because I love stories and like to be else where for a while, its honestly why I read. A friend of mine all but shoved White Oleander in my face before I got home and demand that I read it. Upon finding out that it was on Oprahs list of books, I knew that this book would be interesting and hard to find. Sure enough, I walk into the Library and ask for the book to find out that they are all rented out apart from one in the NE, and I'll be damned if yall think that I'm going that far for a book. I put it on hold along with a few key others such as My Name is Mary Sutter and What is Left, The Daughter and waited. I got a call from the library (I love how they let you know that your holds are in) which told me that I should get up to the library and take them out. I used their new checkout machines and in regular fashion; fucked up.
The instructions were hard understand as it wanted me to place my card in the slot, drag one book at a time across this black plate thingy and scan it whilst in movement, but don't go too fast or it will make this obnoxious "bleep" sound at you which causes people to stare... they all stared at me as the machine kept on bleeping incessantly. I looked around for help and saw some old woman looking at me as though I were stupid. In that moment, I'm not gonna lie, I felt a little out of sorts over something that I simply should be understanding without difficulty. Under pressure I managed to grab my books that I scanned and marched out of the library, successful in my adventure to the library. Who knew that visiting a library could be so hard?

Anyway, this means that I am down to 35 more books this summer!
I'm going to read What is Left, The Daughter next I think, I'll get cracking tonight.

See you with another update,
F.F

Google-Able

Have you ever had those days where you feel a little lost, like a plastic bag, drifting through the wind, too lazy to start again? Yeah, I have!

Many of these days I feel a little like this. 

A headless chicken. Yeah, I whip that out a lot and run around losing random things which happen to be detrimental; such as car keys, books, money and sometimes my cell phone.

You have all seen me freak out over what you seem to think is the smallest of things and this is usually my reaction...

This is what I'm talking about. Most recently my little sister G'Nat found out about my blog, googled me and is now creeping my blog like those people that drive by slowly as you walk checking out your ass... yeahhhhhh. What I take from this is, I am google-able. Oh. Yeah. Its official!

F.F

Summer!

As you all must know, this is one of the most anticipated parts of the school year, and if you aren't in school- its the part of the year when the sun shines blissfully making you sweat tonnes, go bright red and shiny or if you're skilled, become a natural tanned beauty. This is the time of year where you go lie back, soak in the rays, watch children play outside, drinking lemonade on your deck, vacationing and being able to use the excuse of wearing sunglasses errywhere (Including indoors Ammi). It's the time of year when you say "fuck off" to the rest of the world, give them the finger, and do sweet fuck all for the hell of it... Ladies and Gentlemen, welcome to the summer of 2011.

This summer, I have things somewhat planned. Yes, yes, get over the fact that I am becoming somewhat organized! It might come as a shock to you, but I have goals for this summer and I thought that I'd let you in on what I will be doing, mostly for the hell of it, mostly because I like talking and this is just another way to do it. Annnnnnywayyyyyy, I have comprised a list of all the things that I think I want to do this summer as I have mentioned, feel free to add anything to it. I think that this summer is going to be excellent! I cannot wait to see all my friends from L'Overpass back there in 4 months.


Here's my list.

S'rah
Ammi
Volunteer
Working
Camping
Mexico
Laptop
Road Trip
Cabin
Princes Island Park
Picnic
Gazeebo
Edworthy Park
Shakespeare in the Park
Learn to drive stick
Soccer
Stampede
Throwing Knives
Construct Target Wall (For my throwing knives)
Movies
Books!
-  Wuthering Heights
- Chronicles of Narnia
- Harry Potter
- Twilight
- Nineteen Minutes
- To Kill a Mockingbird
- The Book Thief
- Tucker Max
- My Sisters Keeper
- Five People You Meet in Heaven
- White Oleander
- The Pact
- The Uglies
- Interview with a Vampire
- The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake
- My Name Is Mary Sutter
- What is Left the Daughter
- The Summer We Read

Any other suggestions that you might have for me, feel free to shoot my way, I want this summer to be as productive as ever, I do have 4 months. My book list can be added to as I am most likely borrowing/ buying those books!

Text me your suggestions!

F.F